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Saturday, February 21st, 2004
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11:54 am - new lj handle
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![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) mixtapemasacre
ive taken the liberties of adding everyone in my friends list in here to that one, so add me back when you get a chance...bitches.
hopefully, this one will stay. and john, fuck you, i like the name.
and btw, that is my new lj in case you didnt know. was this part even needed? no. i have no idea why i even did it. i guess to clear things up or something, i dunno.
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| Friday, February 20th, 2004
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1:04 pm
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| Thursday, February 19th, 2004
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6:48 pm - i want a girl who laughs at no one else
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i dont have the will power for this shit. goddamn me.
emily sent me some pics of amanda and me from C.O.C.K.tail party, i'll try to post them sometime in the near future...or amanda will, whichever.
im thinking of changing my lj handle. i dunno. i prob will sometime soon.
lunch was very nice today. fri morning will be very nice tom. dinner will be pretty damn nice sat night.
im unfortunately grounded and going to miss brian on fri night. im sorry man. i think instead i'll watch a movie or study or sit or do something and mope for a bit. sounds like a fun evening.
ryan's a mormon now. whether he likes it or not.
oh, and my moms came back. i dont know if i already posted that, but yeah, shes bizack, and it seems as though mein father is leaving sometime in march to go to cali. alright!!!
so long...farewell...goodbye...
im glad you liked your surprise.
current music: magic johnson has AIDS...hahahahahahahaha - cancer romancers
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| Tuesday, February 17th, 2004
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9:10 pm - ALONE! IM SCARED TO BE ALONE! IM SCARED TO BE ALONE!
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im scared to be alone. and so on and so forth.
so, my mom gets back tom morning. that'll be nice. she's bringing some stuff back for amanda's family that i asked her to bring.
apparently, there's been a change in the cable, and now, there might just be another cartoon station!!! wahoo! it has like speed racer on it. fuckin a. and, oxygen! network for women! alright!!! fuck, this is so rad. itd be cool if we got the independent film network(ifn).
what?!?!?!?!? jason fucked a girl in dallas in the ass! jesus jason. jesus.
oh, and btw, john, sry for being a dick to you last night, and during lunch, and in the car, but dude, i just found out that you called amanda an asshole. you are dead. but dude, that thing with you and lauren was fucking hilarious. you really thought id tell her that. dude, im not that much of a dick, although i did pull the condom card at cock-tail party. ha. <3 john. <3 lauren. lauren tha playa. and john tha...rat bastard. ha.
dano and john, we should do stabXcore night at JavaMe. itd be fucking great.
sissyduck37: and it makes me feel very damn fucking good to know i have someone who cares about me as much as i care about them
sissyduck37: because they mean the fucking world to me
-god i love her.
i feel ilke its been awhile since ive done this:
so long...farewell...goodbye...
current mood: good, real fucking good
current music: at birth your mom used you as a douche - cancer romancers
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| Monday, February 16th, 2004
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8:42 pm - "im getting better as i try to bed her, im getting wetter as i try to wed her..." - john baldwin...s
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man, i really want to see "the passion of the christ." it seems really good. fuck. man, i heard they're even coming out with a book about it now too. haha. but anyways, yeah, im going to go see it, perhaps there's a daughter of some lutherans whod see it with me?
i woke up today. got in to a txt message fight with cartman. apparently ive got my head up john amanda's asses and as i grow older i should hopefully find some balls as well as a mind of my own up there. haha, fucking bitch.
i gave brian his $20 back today. he's doesnt remember giving it to me, i think lucy was the only witness, but i feel bad for not giving it back earlier.
i managed to spend like 5 hours at amanda's house tonight. i love spending time with her. she's the fucking best. i took this picture of her at school today, and she looks so fucking beautiful in it. like she does everyday. john, stop hitting on her! jesusfuck. i hope you two have a long happy life together. *emo tear* ha.
dano...new name...danal.
dano called me and came up with like a bigillion new songs in 10 minutes. awesome.
new a radio with guts songs = fucking awesome.
im gaining weight. fuck me. its time for wayne doesnt eat for two days time again. wahoo!
oh, and btw, amanda, just for the record, is fucking amazing.
current music: the woods
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| Sunday, February 15th, 2004
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2:20 pm - you will? you will? you will
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well you say that i treat you like a book on a shelf,
i dont take you out that often 'cause i know that i completed you,
and that's why you are here,
that's the reason that you stay here.
how awful that must feel.
you said that you could be my dream,
i could have every night,
and if by morning id forgotten you,
well no big deal
i'll be alright,
bc you are the reoccuring kind.
you are the reoccuring kind.
you never will leave my mind.
are you the love of my lifetime?
'cause there's been times when i had my doubts.
we were just kids i when i first kissed you in the attic of my parents' house,
and i wish we were there now.
i took so long to figure out,
what this book has been about.
now i write when im away,
letters that you'll never read.
you said go explore those other women,
the geography of their bodies,
but there's just one map you'll need.
your a boomarang,
you'll see.
you will return to me.
oh you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
you will?
now if you dont
then this books all lies.
if you dont,
then my plans will all be worng.
if you dont i'll start drinking like the way i did before,
well, i just wont have a future anymore.
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1:38 am - god i love you. sorry if i say it too much, but i will never stop.
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to sum it up...today was my first valentine's day with someone to spend it with. my first valentine's day(and certainly not the last) with amanda. the second best day of my life. i love how we both did almost the same thing. youre so fucking unbelievable. being in love is the best fucking feeling...EVER!
i love you.
why did tonight have to fucking end?
current mood: really really happy
current music: just like heaven - the cure
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| Saturday, February 14th, 2004
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12:13 am - is that...is that a latex glove in your pants?!?!?!?!?!
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tonight was ok. i got to share brian's fucking beautiful voice with amanda, an amazingly beautiful as fuck girl. im sorry you had to meet her. i am glad we managed to sneak away and talk or walk as much as we did. god, i cant believe i actually have someone to actually care about me as much as you do. i fucking love you so much. i doubt i will ever meet anyone thats just so...special, and perfect and..."goddamn beautiful" as you.
apparently i got the guy pissed for singing my rendition of happy birthday to mario...pshha. it was a shitty scream too! ive done better.
lindsay hates me!!! agh!!!!!!!!!!!!! and she's my best friend, lindsay...take that!!!
you guys looked so fucking cute.
oh and to both sarahs...sry, but i had to throw those cancer sticks out. it had to be done.
clairelax6: cartman no es cool
( do you believe in yesterday? )
current mood: i cant wait for tom
current music: the decembrists
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| Thursday, February 12th, 2004
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3:58 pm - i drown myself in music, light another cigarette...
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i know i shouldnt do it, but they're so fucking poetic.
C.O.C.K.tail party is tom night. i told mario i would tape/record/prob edit it for him with the help of none other than sire david caston, but it seems its going to take up a long time, and a lot of film, that i dont have, and i dont really have the money to pay for. so unless quantz shows up with some tapes, all i can do is try and tape a few of the "highlights."
my dad's leaving on monday, but only for the day, so no biggie i guess. it'd be cool if he left for like, the weekend or something, but oh well. he and i are getting along really well...i just hope i dont fuck it up. im really starting to miss my mom. she sent me a valentin's card. and usually, since my dad doesnt believe in valentine's day at all, i get her something like a box of chocolates or something, but i guess i'll do that when she gets home, or not at all.
i was supposed to miss orr's class tom(you know, the bitchfuck of earth)for map council, which wouldve been awesome, bc its fun, and orr is a bitch and i hate her and the class. i mean, dont get me wrong, a class where i ask the teacher a question, she stares at me for a few secs, then turns around like she didnt hear me, where kids do nothing but call me gay, and come up with little "quirks" i have that would lead everyone to think im gay, and just, i dont know what goes on in there a lot of the time, so just sit, is a lot of fun! i fucking hate it.
i actually pulled off a 93 on my hist test, and i didnt study, and i missed the review that mrs woolley gave at the beginning of class.
tom night should be a blast. im pretty sure sat will be too. i hope mein plans good.
i wish tonight didnt have to end.
the night it took us half an hour to walk you to your door,
the night i said i love you,
the night i cried when i looked into your eyes,
and saw you looking back.
-i wanna be alone, until i just explode...
current mood: im gonna love ya 'til i die
current music: tragic music - a radio with guts
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| Wednesday, February 11th, 2004
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7:51 am
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I am Alex, from "A Clockwork Orange."
Real Horrorshow.
Which Random Cult Movie Character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
i woke up last night at about 4 in the morning having a charlie horse...why? bc in my dream i was running a race...and winning!
my leg hurts.
i didnt study for my essay test in english...FUCK ME!
i cant wait for saturday. <3
current music: smart alex - the adicts
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| Sunday, February 8th, 2004
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7:45 pm
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3:47 pm
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You are Andrew! You're quite the prodigy and can
figure a way out of most any pickle. People
come to you for your wisdom and know-how and
your good-nature usually allows you to help
them no matter how dumb they may be. You're a
modest mouse with a heart of gold! People
respect you because you'll be damned if you
sell out to the man!
Which C.O.C.K. Head ist Thou?
brought to you by Quizilla
-yes!!!!!!!!!!!! and it said modest mouse in there!!!
anyways, i just a 3 hour discussion with my dad about college, and life, and a whole bunch of stuff. it was really good.
oh, and afterwards, i called my mom, it went like this...
"dad might be gone next week...aka, a party over here. haha."
"*sigh of discomfort*"
"you know im not going to have one."
"i know, but you might take amanda home."
"uh-oh mom, we might have *whispers* sex...haha."
"did you tell chad you had sex?"
"what...uh...no..."
"hmm"
"hey mom, i'll talk to you later. i have to study."
-fucking chad. goddamnit. fuckin casey.
fuck! its really fucking cold in here. and i decided i want to be a prosecutor/a lawyer who does a lot of pro bono stuff, bc money doesnt measure up to how you can help ppl who cant really afford a good attorney. im not going to piss away my future anymore. i have goals...again. and this time, they're not going to get fucked.
so long...farewell...goodbye...
current mood: cold as fuck!!!
current music: tchaikovsky
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12:32 am - dont say your not beautiful, bc your beauty amazes me
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| Saturday, February 7th, 2004
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10:06 pm
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so, operation lie and say im filming so i can go hang out with amanda was a success...but i guess a failure at the same time. amanda, im really hoping you dont get into trouble. and i really wish i couldve stayed, pretty much foreever, but i, like everynight, i cant. :(
i realized tonight, that i really really like dirt bike annie. i dont know why i havent busted out my live in jersey city cd more before(short run live cd for mark enoch's birthday party). its really good. that band's really good.
i need to make a list of colleges soon. god, i have no idea of what im doing for college. no idea whatsoever. i feel like doing a year at some small texas school(run for justice of the peace for a job...so, vote for wayne), and then transfer to cali or something. i dont know. if im good enough i might check out ucla. ive wanted to go to usc since i was little, but due to a lack of money, and a lack of grades and smarts, that doesnt look like a possibility. i dont know. i should get this all done by the end of the year.
me and my dad got along really really well tonight. we were like, father and son and friends at the same time. bizaro world.
ive got some things figured out.
i want to write. itd be nice if i could to start, but id like to write. who knows. id like to direct. id like to have a boring desk job(ha, not really, but it for some reason is what i see myself doing), etc etc etc. i wonder what i'll end up being good enough for.
i want some fireweorks...and a bonfire.
so long...farewell...goodbye...
current mood: really missing amanda
current music: coldplay
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| Friday, February 6th, 2004
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10:32 pm
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since im a douche, im doing a seperate post for this:
in history today i was handed back a current i did on monday. now, all i had to do my current event over was what was left after everyone had their way with the newspaper, i got obituaries, and found a fellow in their, and did a current event on it. it pretty much said that the guy was going to be laid to rest on a certain day. i got a note saying:
"wayne, this current event was in VERY POOR taste. poking fun at people who have died--isnt.(meaning it isnt fun). i want two appropriate current events next week to make up for this."
and i just sat there and thought..."holy fuck, did i actually do a current event over some guys obituary? that's fucked up" so, i guess now i know to never to do that again or something.
oh, and whilst im doing another update, i'll say this...my mustang news story for this month was nothing but well...let me put it this way: whata's the difference between my story and a bucket of shit? the bucket. and next month im going to have a hXc badass psa about drunk driving involving ryan hayes, a 40, a hot wheels on fire, a bridge, and me being stupid.
just wanted to share
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9:56 pm
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9:09 pm - i know where i dont want to be in this life, and its here, wherever here is
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MODEST MOUSE FANS -
MODEST MOUSE ON CARSON DALY - Airs 2/10/04
Mark your calendars....
Modest Mouse's appearance on "Last Call With Carson Daly" will air on Tuesday, February 10! Many of YOU were in the studio audience screaming your heads off, so you'll definitely want to see yourselves, and the band, in action. Check your local listings for airtimes in your area.
-watch or be fucking lame.
when/where is carson daily live on btw?
anyways, i went to wal-mart and half-price books earlier. that was ok. i stopped off at blockbuster on mein way home, talked to chris(aka jimmy) for a bit, and then came home. since then, ive sat in the same spot the whole night. i think i remember watching george lopez show for like an hour, i think i ate something, i remember watching something for the last, oh, hour or more, but the problem is i have no fucking clue what. uh. yeah. this is really sad. i have no idea what's happened since 8. and its now, what like 9ish, and i count account for the pasthour of my life. fuck, this is bugging the shit out of me. i mean, fuck, i cant remember like a show i was watching, which may not seem like anything to anyone, but there's no fucking reason why i shouldnt remember. agh!!!
anyways, tom im going to see amanda. that'll be fucking great.
so, apparently people get offended by me A LOT. like, oh well, i call people jews a lot, and may be a bit of an asshole, which i admit, im a fucking cuntshit, but come on, some people need to lighten the fuck up. i dunno, i need to learn to stop talking...period. i wish i had money. i would buy some decembrists. i also want some small brown bike. and some connie dungs. and some lemonheads. and some shins. and some nerf herder. maybe some a global threat. i could use some shins. or stills. or cure. or the new mtx. or charlie brown gets a valentine. or nada surf. or mountain goats. or modest mouse. pfqdwbiducbe. god i wish ii still had my job...my record collection would be quite grand, and that list, that list is just a little sample of the pages i could fill up with shit i want, and one day will have...or else!!!
i finished high fidelity the other...very very good. i havent seen the movie. but the book is epwjnbf. thanks again <3. you are quite fucking amazing.
bt-bt-bt-bt-that's all folks
current music: pulley
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7:42 am
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dear friend,
I do not like high school. and i also dont like my father. also, thanks for giving me a reason. so, im grounded for the weekend, but im going to say im filming and go hang out on sat with amanda. i talked to brian last night. i really wish i wasnt such a douchfuck who got grounded and now cant hang out tonight. it really wouldve been nice to see john and john and brian tonight. we havent really hung out in forever. anyways, yeah, that was really nice talking to him. i think there's shit i need to do, or write, or something, but fuck it.
"i hate my dad. i love amanda"
so long...farewell...goodbye...
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| Wednesday, February 4th, 2004
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4:31 pm - smoke invades these blackened lungs, and exits my esophogaus
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boring boring boring.
today was one month.
i spent all first our taping criminal justice as a favor for mr traylor, which was boring as fuck, went back to VT and argued with jordan about homosexuality, oh, btw, homophobes fucking suck, yeah, and if you want to hate ppl bc of the bible,the answer is staring you right in the face, stop bc there is no god!...anyways, yeah, i also got into an argument with jeff yale bc he said bright eyes sucks, and i said, "dud, youre the drummer for the clarity, you have no right to talk about good music." oh ho ho ho. bitch. he's an ok guy, but i mean, he and disagree a lot on music, like whos better on halloween afi or misfits, when its obviously misfits, and when he thinks its funny to make of the hogies bc im friend with them, god, fuck that.
jesus fuck, if there iis a god almighty, he will let me go to the gooches opening for MTX. but i know i wont. why? bc mine parents suck. sry jason, you know i ally want to be there. FUCK! i hope you get your 15 or whatever.
i really wish i could write worth a shit.
i havent fought with my dad today! wahoo!
i really need to read billy bud and the awakening by wed or im boned like ive never been boned before, well, not extreme, but i need to do well on this or im fucked for the 6 weeks.
i found my third eye blind cd from middle school. its as good as i remembered it to be.
itd be cool if i was omniliingual. or if i could even speak english well thatd be nice.
i'll update sometime later. i dont have much to say i guess.
i wish i could write well enough for her eyes to ever look upon my words and not be wating their beauty.
name that quote:"all we can do is what we've always done..."
so long...farewell...goodbye...
current music: whatevers playing in my room right now
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| Tuesday, February 3rd, 2004
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8:07 am - i wish there were words to describe her...
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im in videotech right now and have nothing better in this life to do other than making a post...so here you go.
i have court in a few hours. yeah, that's going to suck, but hey, im missing a fucking chem test that i didnt want to/im not prepared to take. so a plus i guess. my dad hasnt mentioned me paying for the ticket or anything, so i dont really know whats going to happen. ilike 4 people have believed me so far when i told them i was going to court bc i raped someone. hahaha. people are funny.
there quite a few people who suck ass hXc. just thought you should know.
im trying this whole anorexia/eat barely anything thing again. so far, uh...fun? i dunno. i suck i guess.
i wish it could be saturday already. thatd be nice.
oh hey, for those of you who were wondering...my dad's a total lame ass. last night i wasdoing my weight-lifting thing, and he actually said "instead of excersizing youre body, you should be giving your mind a workout." i did a fake, "youre lame as fuck" laugh, and then heard "no wayne, im serious..." what a fucking dslifgapskdf.
amanda is fucking amazing. just wanted to share.
so long...farewell...goodbye...
current music: angry samoans
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